“I also want the women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, adorning themselves, not with elaborate hairstyles or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God.”
1 Timothy 2:9-10
I have been thinking about this scripture. Over the past few days God has really been working with me on this women thing. Our place; in ministry, life and how he feels about us as His daughters. When I first started fellowshipping I had to lay down a lot and most of it had to do with my image. My mom and I lost our house so more than half of my wardrobe had to go into storage, along with my make up and jewelry. Then, He asked me to lay down my extensions… which was a long process and a battle which involved me ignoring what God was so clearly asking of me. Before Christ, and even after, but before I started fellowshipping with him, I was saturated in fashion, and beauty. I started working for Mark makeup under my mom when I was fifteen. I was very insecure and all I wanted to do was work in fashion. The desire grew up as I did. Before I registered for UNLV I was going to CSN (College of Southern Nevada) and I was going to move to L.A. to go to a school called FIDM (Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising). In short, I found my identity in the way I looked and my image was my god. So quite naturally when I decided to fully follow Jesus, that was the first thing he asked me to lay down, for he says “You shall have no other gods before me” (Exodus 20:3). Recently, when I asked him if I could ever have those things back, he answered “You can have them back, I just wanted to make sure the inside of you matched the outside. After I laid down these things for God he opened up a window of opportunity for me in his kingdom. I became a leader at my church… and that’s when the pruning happened. I learned things about myself that I hadn’t realized were an issue. I can say now that, the progress is evident and I look more like Christ, heart-wise than I did a year and a half ago. When I read this scripture in 1Timothy 2 God compared it to my life. There’s a scripture that says that us as women should have a quiet and gentle spirit (1Peter 3:4), like a Proverbs 31 women. God respects us and loves us just as much as he does his sons, but we have a calling. I encourage any of you women who are out there, who are struggling with image, to stick it out. God is transforming you into something flawless. Also, be open hearted. I know there are some things I closed my heart to, and I missed out on the blessings that would have followed. When this process has subsided (because it never really ends, we’re constantly being healed and turned into Christ) you want to be able to say that you grabbed hold of everything that came your way, learned from it and got the blessing of it. One analogy I like a lot is a diamond… in order for the diamond to be beautiful and shiny, it has to go through chiseling and fire. There can’t be a victory without a battle. There’s a women’s conference at Bethel Church in Redding, California coming up called “Lovely” August 7-9, 2013. Here is the link: ibethel.org. I encourage, if you live in the western part of the United States check it out. It’s $125 and will definitely change your life. I know for most of my walk I had women to look up to and if I hadn’t I wouldn’t be where I am today. Even if you can’t go, check out the website. They may have life streaming during the conference. But ladies remember that Father God sees us as his daughters, and as a father should He only wants the best for you. The best husband, the best family, the best ministry, anything you can imagine. Don’t settle for less because there is blessing in waiting and in embracing his discipline.