Shely here (: I apologize for not writing in so long. Truth is I’ve been going through a sort of difficult, interesting season since I came back from Kansas City. Kansas City was AWESOME by the way. The Lord definitely spoke some incredible things into my life and broke off all sorts of lies I had been believing about my body and my image and even Him- such as His character and the type of God I had believed I was worshipping. He’s so good by the way! and he wants us to have good things, and a life more abundant btw – I just thought I’d add that in there.
Fast forward to now, ever since school started I had been getting my butt kicked. Many of the things I told myself was going to change once the semester started, ended within a week of the semester starting. Even though many of my plans had fallen though, I’ve learned (and am still learning) how to be fluid in many cases. I’m learning that seasons change and they’re all different and that God is not a type A personality type of person. He goes from A to B to Z to V to M to C back to B- as Banning Liebscher often says. I’m also learning that THAT’S OKAY because if I truly trust Him to be my life partner, I’ll trust him no matter what season I’m in and no matter what direction I’m going in. Paul says, somewhere in one of the books (I could look it up, but I’m not.) that He’s learned to be content in all seasons and that he’s learned to live with a lot and he’s learned what it’s like to live with a little. I’ve constantly been pondering on that, asking myself “what is it, that could possibly cause paul to be content in all season?” and it’s trusting God. When you trust him and truly trust him, you can easily live in a mansion or in a hut and your faith not be shaken.
That was a side note (: what I really wanna share with you all is through this tough season of things not going to way I had them planned. I felt his comfort. James 1:2 says “Consider it pure joy brothers, whenever you face trials of MANY KINDS for you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance and perseverance has to finish its work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything.” I was reading in John 15 the other day when Jesus says “I am the vine and you are the branches… Who ever does not bear fruit gets cut off and thrown into the fire but whoever DOES bear fruit he prunes, so that you will be even more fruitful.” the greek word for prunes is kathairó meaning to cleanse or purify. If God was to just let us stay where we are once we bear fruit then that fruit bearing would never increase. So we consider it pure joy because we know we’re being perfected. Facing trials doesn’t have to be something huge and profound that’s happened to your life and now everything is in pieces, no it’s anything that challenges the position of your heart, because that challenge will cause your heart to change but remember there’s light at the end of the tunnel. After having a really hard month. This weekend was probably the hardest. I tried running from emotions that I didn’t want to deal with but facing them caused me to accept I was believing a lie about God because the way I felt contradicted how I should be feeling if faith was found in me on that issue, makes sense? So Sunday morning I went to church after not being there for a while (which I don’t encourage doing, though God was with me in it and he spoke to be about some things concerning that). At church He spoke over me revelation upon revelation and promise about my life. The scripture Matthew 24:13 comes to mind that says: “But those who endure to the end will be saved.” (saved in the greek meaning safety, preserved and rescued)
I could go on about this for days, but I want to encourage you guys who are going through things. I have no idea what you’re dealing with, but I know that the bible says “blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted” and when I think of that I go beyond that, that you can’t be blessed with the great things of God unless you face hardship, we see this pattern all throughout the bible, and the greater the hardship – the darker the tunnel the greater the light at the end. Trials and tribulation is definitely a personal thing. Someone can go through the exact same thing as you but it’s still not the same as you experiencing it and learning from being in the fire yourself. Each diamond is different, they’re all thrown into the fire in the same way but when they come out of the fire their make is different and unique on the inside.
While you’re in the fire just remember God is soooooo good! He’s gentle and humble and meek and kind in nature and he loves you more than you love you. He promises to never leave us or forsake us. Even if you don’t hear his voice right now or “feel” his presence right now he’s still with you, watching after you, walking with you in this difficult time. Stay strong and endure ’til the end because “we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed but of those who believe and are saved.” and remember that “if God is with you who can be against you?” You’re his prized possession.